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after 17 years of studying, tomorrow marks the end of student life for me.
wearing the horrendous uniform (as a student) for the very very last time.
i will not miss attachment, but i will definitely miss being a student.
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after 17 years of studying, tomorrow marks the end of student life for me.

wearing the horrendous uniform (as a student) for the very very last time.

i will not miss attachment, but i will definitely miss being a student.

note to self as a 24 year old

要坚信一个真理:这个世界上只有爸妈永远对你好。        

你24岁了,你记不记得自己青春反叛的时候怎么气过他们。        

你24岁了,父母都快年过半百了,你要对他们好的时间已经不多了。不要等失去的时候才哭着说当时年少不懂事,没有好好孝敬父母。

不要因为寂寞而恋爱,不要因为跟风而恋爱。      

24岁了,学会对自己的人生负责。

明确自己的目标,为此奋斗。    

24岁,你要出国?找工作?还是继续学习?    

24岁,你离踏入社会已不远,你是否已做好准备?

答应自己的事情就要做到,该对自己狠的时候就要狠,切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。    

对自己心软,成不了大事。    

24岁,要学会面对现实,不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。

感谢所有伤害过你的人。      

然后在24岁生日的那天,对他们挥挥手,说声,我不再恨你们了。      

你长大了,你要正视伤害。

.随时给自己准备一个微笑

告诉自己

我可以!

Read this somewhere, and guess its worth sharing.

Wo Bu Guan Attitude

Back when I first entered medicine as a lowly house officer, the first thing we were all taught was to be afraid.

Yes, very afraid.

Of the senior nurses. Dragons we called them. Prim, priggish, no-nonsense matrons in starched-up white frocks with demonic squints that don’t miss a single mistake. Painstakingly meticulous these ladies were with their work, their medications and their patients. Even a near imperceptible crease on a freshly made-up bed earned their eternal ire.

But well-respected they were, even by the most senior consultants in the ward. For a newly minted house officer though, it takes a while to gain their respect. Dour as always, these veterans peer down their superior noses on the fresh physician stumbling on his way to near competence.

Docs
You know those nurses we used to have? They’ve all gone away!
Makes me miss these exacting dragons just a little now that they’re mostly retired and gone to Dubai - sadly replaced with junior gals who fall far short of the mark. Not all of course since I know a few really great ones. But for some reason, the majority of these youthful nurses have adopted a ‘can’t be bothered’ attitude when it comes to work. Rather than apply some thought, these sadly unseasoned nurses prefer to work like unthinking automatons. Blindly following orders to the letter in a twisted medical version of the game Simon Says.

Paul : I think the last meal isn’t quite enough. We have to wait at least a few more hours before proceeding with the operation.
Nurse : Oh really ah?
Paul : Yes, really.
Nurse : But how leh? Patient eat mah eat loh.
Paul : You don’t know why the patients are fasted?
Nurse : Not really. I don’t really care.
Paul : And you’re not in the least bit curious about why? You just follow orders?
Nurse : Well, is there a reason?
Paul : Other than pure sadism on my side?
Nurse : I’m only a nurse. What should I know?

Denigrating nursing - a profession I’ve always respected - makes me even more frustrated.

Don’t they ever take any pride in their work? Why do they serve this particular medication? Why do they hang the broken arm in such a manner? Why do they tilt the head up thirty degrees? Seems like they don’t really give a damn. Seriously. It’s become such a common litany amongst these callow candystripers that I’ve started labelling them as such.

I don’t care. 我不管. Tidak apa.

It could be their theme song. Rather than pride themselves on perpetuating the noble traditions of Florence Nightingale, these girls would prefer to wallow in mindless mediocrity. Outsourcing even the work of handing out medications to the students, they spend the day scribbling notes like insensible clerks.

No doubt if I told them to hang the patient off the side of the bed with church bells and a pinata strapped to his head, they would have done so without question. Oddly enough, not even a shred of curiousity about the work they do. I know blind obeisance is a lovely trait in an employee but a tiny bit of understanding would be nice.

i have hands, you also have hands.

i have eyes, you also have eyes.

you are a staff and i am only a student.

i bet you have more encounters with patients, on different beds available in the hospital more than i do.

i thought i am asked to go into the room, to do some ‘honourable’ job, or at least help you position and/or turn the patient.

but all you asked me to do when i go into the room is: “can you help me elevate the bed?”

knnccb! wtf la you! you only need to find the freaking button at the side of the bed and press it! why trouble me to go in and do this for you! idiots!

if i am free and have nothing better to do, i don’t really mind.

but patient was admitted at 6am so we had a busy day today. we only went for break at 12.30pm. we have 101 drugs to give and lots of drugs to titrate. lots of bloods to take and changes to make even before the consultant came.

and the part is that the patient is on airborne isolation, so strict ppe and n95 before entering the room. and after i had all the trouble to gown up and put on the stupid suffocating n95, i just went in for 10 seconds to press a freaking button that is totally within her reach! this is such a waste of MY time and resources. an extra pair of hands is not to be violated this way!!

i really don’t see why she can’t elevate the bed herself. she is not doing any sterile procedure. she can still use her hand to knock on the window to signal me to go in anyway, so why can’t she use the SAME FINGER to press that button. and i don’t see elevating the bed can result in kinking any lines, or the ventilator! shits!

thanks to her, i missed part of the doctors round, which is the only thing i look forward to each day during shift, as i get to learn and understand better with doctors explaining things to each other.

ok chill fellow missies, this time its not a doctor, its the freaking 2D Echo bloody lady! idiotic to the max! i wonder if there is a protocol saying, “only nurses can elevate the bed”! i will break bond and move to another hospital if there’s such sop!

ok 2 more shifts! jiayoujiayou!!

WL- you grammar seems to be suffering.. you need to work hard to get the tenses correct and the structure of the sentence which frequently loses impact due to poor construction of singular and plural cases. I know its hard .. but you must get a proof reader to check or your marks will suffer..

my prof..

yup my english is bad, its REALLY LOUSY! i bet she almost vomited reading my draft. anyone wants to vomit blood too by reading my 15k words thesis next year? T.T

~finally i have the courage to post this, a reminder for myself to read draft 10000x before submitting.~

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